been feeling rather tired to blog lately. but since yahoo jus pissed me off by not allowing me to sign in, i've decided to sit down and get myself together to blog. i dono if it's gd or bad, but i'm jus beginning to feel like it's becoming a chore. okay maybe i'm just plain tired.

basically a few days ago, i was chose to be in the softball squad for our inter-class tournament which is happening next week. was initially rather reluctant. was dragging myself to go for the first practice which was on wednesday. when the senior who was coaching us told us we need to stay on either friday or saturday (i hav cca on fri, so i thought i might have to go on saturday), i found myself regretting further. there, perhaps, is nothing to regret about. afterall, despite many complaints, they pleaded me to join in because they were short of people. but after the first practice, i enjoyed it tremendously. it was lovely to learn a new sport, though i was rather confused for the first hour. i had no particular idea what they were trying to explain to me. :p but it got better. apparently they thought i was good at catching a high ball. *lol* but the first time i actually caught the high ball was when i was quite dreaming. *shrug* lol. but i'm fine with it really. so currently my position's right out-fielder. i love my position. nothing much to do. jus hope i catch a fly ball and throw it back to 1st base or whatsoever base which is free. i'm bad at batting...but surprisingly when we practised again, i batted a nice ball on my first try. please wish me luck for the tournament next week? i -think- they're putting me in, instead of a reserve (which i was hoping for much earlier). hope so anyway. :)

after the whole lot of stuff about softball, my right arm muscle's been aching. (thx to her for attempting to massage my arm though *rolls eyes* u noe wad i mean. :p) been observing my arm lately. i'm growing a muscle! *bounce* whee. lovely. but er...it seems like my left arm's not gotten any improvement. lolx...imagine me with uneven muscles on each side. *laugh* oh well. muscles growing...pimples growing too. *gr* it's been invading my face! *growls* i hav one on my nose! that's -bad-. i don't know how i'm gonna go out shopping tomorrow, but i'll figure a way. my mum bought new pimple cream for me though. thought it was really lovely of her. *grin*

whoopee i'm goin out tomorrow, which means i'm gonna get the aidol american classic love songs as well as kelly's thankful. finally. gee i doubt i've gone out shopping for quite a while. think it's been months! long before SARS holidays. to add to it, i'm meeting my pri sch fren whom i haven't met since..february. okay that wasn't too bad. gonna meet pj too...and nisak...and everyone else. goody. :)

anyway, i've got friends telling me i've been sounding rather dead online. there were at least 2 ppl. sigh. i haven't got a clue either but i realised. just got that can't-be-bothered-to-talk kind of feeling. been extremely tired lately. usually when i sleep at 11:30pm, i'm still -quite- fresh. but these days, i seldom get to stay freshly awake from the top of the 11th hour onwards. *shrug* but i've been terribly hyper in sch lately. lolx. my classmates can tell i -think-. maybe i've been using too much energy in school. lolx. lately i've been looking forward to coming home with my classmates. yet when i'm home, i haven't got a clue what to do. :p but it's okay. no complaints at all!!

by the way, today during CME (civics & moral education), we were at the library and i found this very interesting storybook. it's called Lollipop. so what happens is this guy called Victor Emanuel wanted a new name cos he doesn't want a name of the King of Italy. so he got named Lollipop by this guy called Otto in this general store he frequents. not too long later, he started buying lollipops from otto. the thing amazing about those lollipops is, when you suck them till it's a flat piece, it'll be transparent. and u'll have to put them over your eyes like your glasses and close one eye and wish for something, and the ppl in front of u would do it. lolx it was a very fresh storyline. only got to read about 4-5 chapters of it. but it's lovely. think i might go back to the library and search for it again. :p

anyway i'm gonna do this again...
Friday Five
1. What do you most want to be remembered for?
hmm definitely something good. if academic, i'd wish something'd go along with it. like good at CERTAIN sports or something non-academic wise. like me being SO glad when we won the dance competition last year...that was the only non-academic trophy i've got. *hums*

2. What quotation best fits your outlook on life?
er..i think it's Live Life To Your Fullest. i've been pretty enthusiastic in learning new things lately. and i love every bit of my life. i get quite irritated when ppl mention about committing suicide just for trival matters. it gets frustrating, no? when ppl don't appreciate their life.

3. What single achievement are you most proud of in the past year?
past year? hmm. i haven't got a clue yet. i'm hoping to get my report card soon! be glad to check out the position, cos my results so far are pretty satisfactory to me apart from some (eg. chinese, as usual). otherwise...*shrug* perhaps it was the dance. didn't do anything much to be proud of...

4. What about the past ten years?
*gulp* past 10 yrs? i dono! lol...i haven't gotten a single successful star chasing...competitions, i seldom take part in them...only dance...and softball in this yr's case, which isn't over yet. so yeah *shrug*

5. If you were asked to give a child a single piece of advice to guide them through life, what would you say?
live your life to your fullest? happiness is everything? :p something along that line yeah. *smiles*

Daily Double
1. If you had to choose between being with your true love forever, or your immediate family forever, who would you choose, and why?
uh true love? cos that's my true love? er wait i don get the immediate family part. oh well i'll give it a pass.

2. Which is more important to you: trees or animals?
that's a good thought. i think animals. 1) i don eat veg. 2) with technology like this, without trees we'd prolly get another material to take over paper, using animals. :p 3) animals can be pets!

okay i think i might go to sleep soon...and probably wake up 12 hours later. *laugh* no softball practice tmr. whee. resting time. :)
:: sh 7:40:00 AM [+] ::
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take a look at this -looks about with green envious eyes-
:: sh 7:33:00 AM [+] ::
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today's dailydouble
1. How important is the Internet to you? Could you give it up?
veeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrry important. i could never ever ever give it up. my fingers will itch if i can't touch the computer! :p it's that horrible *nod me* sigh. internet-addicted. lol

2. Would you rather die reading, partying, or sleeping?
eh? die sleeping i think. die partying'd be horrible. you're partying all night long enjoying yourself and u die? die reading's HORRIBLE. ;p i would never ever die reading!!

today's this-or-that
May 27: Personal Habits, Quirks, Routines, etc.
1. Do you prefer silence or do you like background sound (music, TV, etc)?
background music. i always study while listening to mp3 or radio...or my discman ;)

2. Bathe/shower in morning or evening?
both actually. you bathe 2ice a day duncha? ;p yeap so usually one in the morning one in the evening...but school days i bathe in the afternoon and evening. (lazy to wake up that early to bathe)

3. Sleeping in complete darkness, or with a nightlight on?
complete darkness. with light around i usually can't sleep unless i'm extremely tired. ;)

4. Lay out clothes the night before, or just grab what's closest in the morning?
grab what's closet in the morning. :p oops true colours of me popping out.

5. Hang up/fold clothes neatly, or just toss them wherever?
-try- my best to fold them. but sometimes i can't be bothered so i toss them into the wardrobe. hehe

6. Work out at a gym, or at home on your own (or do you not bother with exercise)?
home on my own. cos most of the gyms are not suitable for a barely-14-yr-old to enter. *grumble*

7. Talk on the phone, or via IM/e-mail?
anyone of 'em. :) if im bored, phone. if i'm not, email/msn/icq/irc will do fine. :)

8. Are you usually on time, or late?
er. im usually either early or late. so lol...most of the time early...i hope!

9. Spendthrift or frugal?
quite a spendthrift. but i'm saving up as much as i can now. (so that i can spend later on cds lol -shuddup anna, u din have to tell 'em that-)

10. Thought-Provoking Question of the Week: You work with someone who is not in the habit of bathing regularly. The smell seems to be getting worse and worse! Would you: 1. try to do something about it, or 2. try to grin and bear it? If you said 1, what would you do?
i think i'd tell that person to bathe in a joking manner and hope that person gets the hint if i'm close to that person...otherwise i'll just try to bear with it i guess...
:: sh 3:06:00 AM [+] ::
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Your ideal mate is Cyclops. He's handsome, has
nice hair, and has a cute smile. But he is
also a tad bit annoying, overprotective, and
jumps to conclusions ("We were just
talking!!"). Though his shortcomings may
be a bit much, don't let that throw you off.
He knows how a lady is to be treated and is one
you can grow old with.


Who Is Your Ideal X-Men 2 Mate? (ladies only)
brought to you by Quizilla
*sticks out tongue at pj* lol! oops!
:: sh 2:46:00 AM [+] ::
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was reading this by which, made me happier. i knew it. clay was the deserved winner. the phone lines were just screwed. lalala.
:: sh 2:43:00 AM [+] ::
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i'm gonna type a quick entry before going off to study tomorrow's science test (which is about sexual reproduction and issues on sex. lol). wish me luck!

anyway, yesterday, i was watching american idol with my brother on the tape. it feels pretty sad to see clay joking about when he was placed second. surely he did feel a tad sad. perhaps he just was good at putting on a front. hope not. but it was pretty sad. managed to smile my way through to make sure my brother doesn't realise that i had cried because of clay the other night. but i realised that my anger and frustrations on thursday night wasn't much contributed to because clay didn't win the american idol title. i think it was more of because somebody gave me a huge hint on that evening, before i watched. unfortunately i caught the clue, and ended up feeling rather disappointed, only looking forward to clay's performances. trust me, those sorta feelings suck. and the second part to my anger was due to me not being able to watch the last part because my uncle was fumbling around with the tv control setting in channel u cos it disappeared. i didn't even get to watch the last part. whatsoever now, i am getting used to the fact, adapting pretty well, rather relieved clay did not show a teeny weeny sign of sadness. not even a tinge. thank goodness i guess. i'm glad he still could say "we'll probably fight later. like on the charts or something". :) which i'm sure clay would do us proud. :) i'm looking forward to his single being released! :) (oh by the way, May 16th was CLAY AIKEN DAY.)

anyway, today was quite a nice day overall. in the morning, my first few lessons were chinese. okay fine, i was picked on to read a paragraph on the book. (i always get picked on anyway.) for once, he called the right name. *laughs* what happens is, my chinese name is rui4 fang1. and somehow, the word fang1 looks like the character fen1. (which happens to be my cousin's name.) and he kept calling me rui4 fen1 for quite a while. okay, anna, stop making fun of your teacher's mistakes.
PE was aight i guess. our teacher was rather frustrated when she saw us strolling to the field. so she started counting and told us that'd be the number of push-ups we'll be doing. however, the people behind didn't know about it so they strolled all the way, despite being the last few. so we're gonna have to do 50 push-ups. but she's magnanimous enough to let us do 10 each day. anyway, we played touch rugby, by which i finally realise why it's a rough game. i never fail not to be scratched or pulled or hit or anything. nonetheless, it was quite fun. so *shrug*
during literature today, my teacher finally commented telling me i look funny sitting directly in front of a computer (which wasn't facing me)...
during geography, our teacher was lovely enough to let us watch a walk to remember as we've covered the whole syllabus for the year. *grin* we watched till the play where Shane West kissed Mandy Moore. (aww!) ;) i'm gonna have a good cry at the end of it. *hums* i love our geog teacher. ehhee!
i finally got back my Mathematics test today, in which, i had quite a lot of confidence in getting a good score. but when i heard the top girl was another girl with the score of 45.5 (upon 50), i was quite discouraged, leaving myself to pray i'll get quite a good grade, cos usually when i have quite some confidence and my name doesn't get read out (meaning i'm not the top or top few girls), i get much lower than i expected. so when my name was called, i was so worried, i just went to the front, and waited for my paper. unexpectedly, my maths teacher just stared at me and gave me a grin. (i was wondering what the grin was about. pity grin or happy grin or trying-to-console-you grin). i took the paper, immediately roll it up without taking a peek at the marks and strolled back to my seat. halfway through to my seat, i turned behind after hearing my name being called by my teacher again. she then asked if i've taken a look at my marks and i shook my head. she told me to look at it. getting suspicious of my teacher's character, i just obediently looked at my marks. GAWD. 45/50. *laughs* i started jumping for joy and looked at my teacher while she gave me a satisfied grin. phew. :p i was a damned 0.5marks away from the top girl. phew phew phew. i love my maths teacher. :p she's damn friendly. she gave me a tootsie roll the other time just because i was sitting at the same bench with her and some students who went to her for help. *grin*

anyway, when the bell rang, was about to go home with my friend...so we walked towards the staircase. then i saw my literature teacher once again, so i said hi cheerfully (maths was the last lesson for the day, y'see.) and she grinned back and said hi. then she asked if she could pinch my cheeks (?!) so i was like "HUH? noooooo :p" then she just walked down and gave me a light pinch on my cheeks and told me i look quite red, "very cute". lol so i just giggled and walked off... brings me to wonder if she's feeling alright. perhaps just not in her right mind today. lol...

so all in all, had quite a wonderful day. =) hope such loveliness would happen every day of my life, where i'm worry-free. :)
:: sh 2:07:00 AM [+] ::
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i happen to love this song now. :)

Bridge Over Trouble Water

When you’re weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all;
I’m on your side. When times get rough
And friends just can’t be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

When you’re down and out,
When you’re on the street,
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
I’ll take your part.
When darkness comes
And pain is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

Sail on silvergirl,
Sail on by.
Your time has come to shine.
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine
If you need a friend
I’m sailing right behind.

Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
:: sh 5:42:00 AM [+] ::
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i finally joined a clique (thx sammi!)

was very much happier yesterday despite having reminded about aidol again and again (and most of them were started by me). i was very pissed on thursday night because,
a) i knew the results b4 the show, which often piss me off cos it spoils the fun.
b) clay wasn't the winner.
c) ruben was the winner.
d) clay sang so well yet he wasn't the winner.
e) my uncle was fumbling about with the channels cos our channel u disappeared and he was setting it into the tv again which occupied the tv frm 11.15pm onwards. thus, leading me not to be able to watch it. though i still stayed up till 11+ goin to midnight, i tried hoping that he would get off the tv soon, but to no avail. exasperated, i just went into my room and uncontrollably burst out crying. i was very very pissed and upset. i just kept swearing and couldn't stop. but at the end i cried myself to sleep. the next day i tried not to think about it cos i was rather sleepy (try sleeping at 12+ and waking up at 5.30), so i slept on the bus, as usual, and woke up feeling very much better. (thank goodness. i've learnt to shrug it off btw..cos i figured pj's right...think about will young, darius and gareth...) then i was in a lighter mood, felt like i was able to bounce around a bit...but in school, my friend and i ended up whining...lol. but it was aight...was rather relieved because i've only one test left, which is on tuesday (science), and our home ec presentation was over (yes it was screwed up!), our both home ec assignments were finally handed up, and i got back my d&t (28/40 LOL. (shona, i passed. god i passed. cant believe it. lol)) which sucked compared to last year (i had like 53/60 if i haven't mistaken), but considering the fact i couldn't be bothered to study, it was gd 'nuff. lol.

anyway after that, we had our sec4 farewell party which i happen to be in the organising crew. basically it was me and my senior who were overall in-charge, but she happened to have higher chinese class till 3pm that day i was overseeing everything. rather panicky...we were s'posed to fill all the water bombs with water...it was quite alright cos i managed to get quite some help. then i had to run to the d&t block area to tell the sec4s to go to the canteen for lunch. den i ran to canteen to help my teacher carry the cater-food stuff. then ran back to the toilet hoping the water bombs were doing fine. then ran out to buy chocolates as gifts for the sec4s. den ran to the GO to pay the lady the money for the cake which would arrive any time. then ran back to the toilet...realised i needed pails to contain all the water bombs, ran to the HOD room and asked for pails, then ran back to the toilet. then ran out and got 2 girls to carry tables out to the field. then ran and ran until my senior was done with her higher chinese! *thank god*. then we went to the canteen, supposedly to have our lunch, but i wasn't hungry (amazing. despite havin to run about. lol). got a cup of drink and waited and rested. then, we ran to grab radio from my teacher and ran to grab batteries. then fixed everything, we tried to get started but the sec4s were dilly-dally-ing, while we tried to explain the games. lol..but it was aight after a while. we had fun, really. we were separated into groups. because i didn't know the answers to the games, i had to play as well. apparently my group lost for the 3rd game and we had no choice but to do the ketchup dance as forfeit. i was complaining about my fate with ketchup dance. lol...honestly i loved that song, i always asked for that song to be played on radio. after the xmas party last year, i had a fear for that song. lol! anyway then we had water bomb fight! *grin* initially i was totally completely dry. being satisfied after running, because my friend threw one at me and missed, i stood there laughing at whoever who got splashed. i was also wondering if ppl liked me too much that they didn't wan me to get wet, or they couldn't be bothered with me. lol but god knows, the sec1s ran to the toilet and filled up the pail and plotted a plan against me. 2 of 'em started running after me and tried to grab hold of me. i ran for my dear life but was already tired of running, thus having splashed by half-filled pail. it was a lot of fun, really. :p then every1 started filling up their waterbottles and stuff like that..and i got splashed again and again. *grr* :p
not too long later, my senior and i went to the GO to fetch the hazelnut chocolate cake, which was dee-lee-cious but too chocolatey and too creamy. :p if u know what i mean. then the sec4 chairman started dipping her fingers into the leftovers and started dipping them into other's faces. god, my hair had it! i came home desperately wanting to wash my hair cos i smelled of chocolate cake! lol..but it was a whole lot of fun. our instructor, mr lim, also had water sprayed and splashed ALL OVER. lol i was so proud of the picture i took, cos it had a person with a bottle on top of mr lim's head with water comin outta it. *grin* smart ol' me! whee. lol

so the party's finally over, nothing to worry about except for claiming back of money, which will most probably be an easy job, so thank goodness! phew! :) whee. so im gonna fight for my right about coming home early without having to waste time in school waiting for my senior. whee. lalala...

have a lovely saturday everyone. eyes getting strained. time to get off the comp. i've been online since 11+!!!
:: sh 2:46:00 AM [+] ::
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yes im pissed. so? im childish so? i don giv a damn. ruben won. i don understand. don understand a teeny weeny single bit. when ryan seacrest read their names, it was so obvious clay had more screams. more fans. which SHOULD mean more votes. yet? i so fuckingly wish i was in america to help vote. i cannot imagine it. "ruben studdard. u are the american idol". that sounds weird. that will BE weird. you imagine you're at ruben's concert. he's standing there. yes, enjoyable music. yes, lovely voice. yes, hoarse voice. yes, one fat guy standing there singing soulfully. yes, he's ruben. so? he doesn't do anything. he stands there, same expression for every song, and smile. every single song. okay, sweet home alabama is an exception cos it's the only faster tempo song he ever sang. the rest are all the same type. now, ppl are complainin clay's too broadway. now hello? can u name me any other type of songs he sang?

clay sings broadway musical well. yes, i know that very well. BUT, he tried different songs. apart from ballads that is. mack the knife was good. build me up buttercup. sugar pie honey bunch (if that's not the title, i don care either). even grease. he had the guts to try 'em all. he had the guts to humiliate himself by shaking his boottay. he did all he can. he winked, he danced, he smiled, he moved about. he did more than jus standing there and singing deep into the song. he did more than jus being like ruben. i just do not, at all, get why he isn't the winner. even if it's by 0.0000001% of the votes that he lost to ruben, i don't get it. im demanding, im childish, im frustrated. SO? i don giv a damn now. im jus so bloody pissed. im reconsidering if i shud stay up till midnight for the bloody show. freakin hell. yes im pissed. im not pissed at ruben. im pissed at the fact that ruben won. im so pissed. fuck it.

p/s: the ONLY thing i enjoyed about the show earlier apart frm clay's performance was the guy who wrote "my way" for frank sinatra, he sang a version of it for aidol which was fantastic. it had me in stitches. but now im on fire again. damn it.
:: sh 6:35:00 AM [+] ::
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thx to sammi for this..
this apparently is his single cover. *grin*

:: sh 3:01:00 AM [+] ::
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got back my chinese paper today. yes, it sucked. i got a 62% for that paper itself. which is B4. however, that meant i've dropped 2 grades down from term 1. that means bad news. bad news means no breaking it to my parents. *shudder* considering the fact that the highest was probably 95%, it made me felt more inferior than ever. at that point of time, it just feels horrible to be in such a class getting this low when you had the confidence of getting an a2. i reckon among the 9 of us, from my class, taking higher chinese, a friend of mine who had the same marks as me, were the last 2 positions. perhaps the other girls in the same higher chinese class as us had lower but that don't count. sucked.

well thank goodness it was PE after that. we merged with another team to play touch rugby. guess we had more fun than any other group since we had a more competitive game. it was fun, really. now i know why they say rugby's a rough sport. i was being hit almost like a thousand and one times while trying to defend. but it was fun. *grin*

got back my literature paper too, but it was average i guess. i usually get those kind of marks for lit anyway. 13.5/20 which means 67.5%. *shrug* i thought that was fine, till i realised the highest was 18/20 which is 90%! that girl is the lit-pro. she always get those rocket-high marks. nothing surprising i guess. *shrug*

almost got back my geography ca too. *thank goodness no* phew. wasn't ready for another disappointment. i'm now lowering all my expectations after receiving the chinese paper. guess it might help a little. hopefully... anyway our VP popped by our class and made my row squeeze to the little corner by the side. right in front of my table is a computer. right next to me is a window which couldn't be opened. so the air ventilation around there is pretty horrid. *grumbles* and i'm no longer sitting very near her, and i usually talk to her almost the whole day at school...so now, there's gonna be high intensive postcard writing i reckon. *laughs* anyways, no more geography for the rest of my life!! (if i get into a triple science class that is, cos im gonna aim for literature!)

english was enjoyable today. halfway through english, i was writing down some stuff when my friend called me from behind. i didn't realise until she called me a few times then i turned my head and she told me to look outside - only then did i realise my principal was outside trying to get my attention. i had a shock of my life. *lol* i've never sat so close to the window where people walk by, y'see. goodness. *breathes in and out* then she told me to open the window but i told her it was spoilt. then she was convinced so she walked off. my heart thumped like it was all ready to jump outta my body. *shudder* well it's not a nice position for me to sit i guess. in case anybody calls me from outside again, let alone the principal!
anyway we continued with the debate we had on friday - We Should Have Mid-Year Exams. (my half of the class were supposed to do on "we should NOT have mid-yr exams". i felt rather bad leaving the lit-pro, lizzy, to do all the talking and debating...yea i had lots of thoughts running through my head to argue back but well. wasn't in the mood. wasn't confident. wasn't having enough guts. was, instead, rather worried that i didn't make enough sense. *sigh* i'm not gonna make it this way! i need confidence booster. *nod me*

maths was boring today. but she gave us our mark list...i'm placed 3rd! *bounce* considering the fact that the 1st and 2nd were tied, and they were barely 0.5 marks after mine, i was rather contented. (i got to learn to be anyway) *grin* whee. 77.1! *smuakz* i love maths.
:: sh 2:54:00 AM [+] ::
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feeling a little fishy. i was told to finish up the steamed fish and the fried fish with very -little- chilli which both were delicious. but now i feel fishy. there was quite a lot left. yes i finished them. there were only bones left. and some gravy. oh well. yes i still feel fishy. :p

then it popped up to me when i was gorging on my fish...about the English Language. why's "smell something fishy" like that? why not "smell something meaty" or "smell something vegey"? *ponders* sigh. the fish must've gotten into me.
:: sh 4:59:00 AM [+] ::
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*sigh* i decided to forgo the previous events which happened before the wkends. typed them out just before my comp hung but *sigh* they're gone. *dammit* anyway, decided to change layout again. clara complained it was too wordy. *sniffle* then i wanted that "penny for your thoughts. dollars for your dreams." layout but it was rather screwed. it's either tagboard+unsuccessful blog or no-tagboard+successful blog. so decided to change. *grumbles* oh well..

but anyway, many down, 4 more tests to go! golly! im gotta rejoice after the last one which is on 27th. think im gonna be stress-free for a mo, then! :) whee! can't wait! *be patient dear. be patient*

anyways, visited the dentist yesterday. it's been half a year! that was quick! (by the way, my dentist's really nice. she's a lovely, friendly one, recommended to me by my classmate. she's got the makings of a model *nod me*) anyway, had one baby tooth extracted. oh yes she did inject my gums before extracting it. then the left portion of my mouth was terribly numb. anyway she did some cleaning and stuff for me. *sparkle* so i felt very clean despite the blood in my mouth. lolz. oh well...one more baby tooth to go before you'll see me with braces. *smiles* i can't wait to REMOVE the braces. but that'll be longgggggggggggggg later. *sigh* wish me luck for the braces thing, pls!! lol.

anyway, i'm looking forward to thursday. a) 3 tests would be over then. b) american idol grand finals!!!! *keeps fingers crossed* pls let me be able to watch the finale till midnight. please let me watch it. please mummy please daddy. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. please let clay win please let clay win!! lol...*cough* oh well. the winner's single will be out on june 3rd! (thx sammi darling *grin* yes, im a kind-hearted soul) if clay wins, i'll buy his album. if he makes it big, he might have a world tour and the next thing you know, we might see him in Singapore!! i might chase him! ahh! *dreams on* (piak! anna, wake up!) ah well. pls let him win pls let him win!
:: sh 11:58:00 PM [+] ::
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pardon me. my template's half done and i gotta go offline cos i've got sch tmr and i've got a dental apptmt *damn* cya arnD!
:: sh 7:49:00 AM [+] ::
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i'd love to point out a rather horrible sight i experienced yesterday during recess. i was walking with her to the malay stall to queue to buy food. we went to see wat the stall had for that day then walked towards the end of the queue. just as i stood behind the last person, this two (perhaps blind) secondary 2 students just rushed and stepped in between the person before me and of course me. they just started talking as though nothing had happened. i, of course, tried to gave them -the eye-. how unfortunately, those ignorant lasses just kept talking. oh pls, dont act like ur blind. ur blessed with a pair of eyes. don't misuse them. *sheesH* i thought audrey wasn't affected by it. who knows, she was pretty mad at them too. then i started silently cursing them while talking about them to her...then slowly, their group of friends jus suddenly all joined in the queue with 'em. so yes there were about 5 or 6 of them. uh *cough* i DO think i was there first, darlings? now won't u jus use your damned eyes to SEE. and use your damned brains to THINK. *sigh* wot an idiot. sigh.
:: sh 12:24:00 AM [+] ::
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today was *shudder* had chinese compo test....was trying to write as quickly as i could...my hand was like rather tired after that...then we had PE (physical education). goodness was that HELL! :p 1 activity per minute. so we had 8 minutes of "high intensive workout" as my teacher says. i had like 35 pushups...den 75 skipping...den stretches...den 21 burpees, 16 rows of shuttlerun, 12 rows of bball dribble, 16 situps and 10 rows of bunny hops! especially when i had all the sports ppl in ur team (1 badminton player, 1 tennis player, 1 ex-softball-now-bball player), i was -so- tensed. pushed myself tho' i was pretty much lagging there. i was so tired i was just huffing and puffing, trying to minimise the things i had to say to my friends. i was feeling rather uncomfortable when we went back for science lesson (LOL more abt the teacher in a while). was feeling terrible cos we didn't have time for cool-down exercises. i was feeling awful!! i needed so much water, so i just kept drinking. then i felt like it was to watery in my stomach, almost felt like puking. *shudder* then after science, i stood up...was about to erase those on the board cos it was my class duty, but my friends kept scribbling and doodling on it. so they helped to erase it for me. just then i was feeling terrible. just suddenly felt like i -should- sit down. so i jus went to sit and just before i did, i had a sudden short period of blurred vision. i jus sat there and closed my eyes and tugged on tight to my pinafore (hadn't changed back yet then). was rather worried. hadn't had that blurred vision since..pri 4 or 5...it was a bad experience. think i was about to faint! it was horrible....*shudder* but i'd be glad to do it again if it could help me to be "stronger". *nod me* y'know what i mean. gonna go jogging this wkend. whee!

anyway, after recess (during which i ate quite a lot. thkfully i was much better by then!), i had this presentation which i -still- think i screwed my team up. it was horrible. yes i did rehearse on my own beforehand. just didn't seem to work. my head wasn't connected to me. i wasn't stammering. i just was unsure of what i had to say. kept staring at my script. bad bad bad!! was feeling rather quilty after that but my friends just kept goin "whee it's over!!!" and stuff. sigh. i feel bad.

anyway, got back my eng compre test, i was -so- glad i passed. thought i was gonna flunk it. the highest was 15/20. i had 12. *shudder* bad 'nuff. but ah well, still think it's good that i passed. after all 14 ppl failed. *phew* thk goodness im not one of 'em!

had a literature ca after that, which was quite horrid too. repeated quite some points again and again. not that i didn't know what to write, more like i thought the questions were rather similar. the passage was hell long. so i was rushing for time. managed to finish before our teacher told us to stop. *phew* one of my friend couldn't finish! *shudder* that's BAD!! saw my literature teacher after that and she told me she looked forward to marking my script!! *keeps fingers crossed* pls dont giv me terrible marks pls don't pls don't!

anyway after school, i stayed in school with this schoolmate of mine (who's a year older than me, yeah i think a lot of my classmates know who i'm referring to..)...i think our friendship's becoming more strained. or maybe it's just me. i dislike her character. i don't like the way she keeps complaining about her problems. they're always somehow related to one teacher in a way or another. it's not too bad if it's just for a while, but it's been this same problem over and over again ever since i stepped into here. i don't like that. i hate the way she gets close to any teacher she sees. i dislike the way she does a lot of things. the way she complains her problems to every teacher she sees. i dislike it especially when it's some teeny weeny bloody problem. i dislike her character and habits now. i hate it. i can't stand the way she likes to order me about. i hate the way she shows me -the face- when i tell her i don't wanna stay in school or anything in accordance to that. i don't like it at all. but i've been questioning myself "why?". i was so close to her last year. i enjoyed every bit of her company...well almost every! yes i admit we're drifting further apart. but i can't be bothered to help her solve her problems anymore. i cannot stand it. i don't wanna stand it. and i won't stand it. if she asks me again i'll go "mm" or "dono". *nod* okay i've set up my mind.

then again, i was thinking this way about my pri sch best friend. she's been -really- close to me for the 2 years in pri school - p5 & p6. i never -ever- quarrelled with her. there was once which i -tried- to (don't ask me why), but we ended up bursting into laughters. i almost always cry when i'm with her. cos i'm always laughing till i'm crying. then when it was p6 graduation, we vowed to keep in contact and not to drift apart. yes i was innocent and naive enough to think that way. yes, now we're not that close anymore. at a certain point of time i thought i didn't quite enjoy her company anymore cos we couldn't find anything much to talk about. but now, we're finally er...getting into contact again? ;p enjoy writing postcards to her these days. whee. thank goodness. no wonder robbie says "win some lose some". y'know what i mean. :)

okay back to the new science teacher. according to her, she actually thinks we're having "the best of both world" for having a male & female teacher to teach us the topic on Sexual Reproduction (if u know what i mean *giggle* nice one there, dear!). it was a rather enjoyable lesson we had yesterday. but not today. he was giving us weird and funny answers tho' sometimes they make sense. okay they -are- supposed to make sense. but well. hehe...there was one part where he was talking about pregnancy. so he went...the first child's usually tough to be given birth to. they might take up to 12 hours of labour. but the 2nd child would be much easier. it probably would take up to 6 hours. or 3. or even when the mother's walking to the market it could just come out like that. *rolls eyes* lol. i couldn't stop laughing. there was one better one. he was talking about the umbilical cord. about how the mother has to eat enough for the baby and stuffz like that. then he said something about chicken eggs. they have yolk big enough to last the chick until it's hatched. then he went, "their eggs so big so they have enough yolk. look at your eggs. your eggs are so small." *STARES* i was like WHA-?! lol. i -totally- cannot believe he actually said that. i was laughing the ass outta me! lmao-ing. *Nod nod* wad a weird teacher.

anyway today he spoke about the menstrual cycle by which he showed us some diagrams and stuffz. then when it ended he just went, "anyway you girls know lah. you're more experienced." *dots* anyway i found him rather irritating today. he was such a pain. my friends and i were media reps of the class, so we helped him with the laptop. but it wouldn't show on the screen. so he requested us to find the media assistant who's a non-staff of the school... we were determined to try to plug this thing into it cos it was left hanging and not plugged into anything. so we wanted to try and he refused to let us try. he just told us to go to find him. being extremely tired enough because of PE today, we were rather reluctant but we went anyway, sulkily. then when we reached level 3 (where the media assistant's room is), he told us to come down cos it was fine already. *silently curses him* then we had to walk all the way down again. then when something went wrong again, i refused to help already. 2 of my friends helped though. i wasn't too happy about him. he's so stubborn. can't he learn to trust us a little? *dammit* i bet my friends were silently cursing him too. we were all complaining about him not being able to trust us. how could he expect us to help him then? *shrugs* his loss. not ours. =) so yeah...im having second thoughts about enjoying him as our science teacher *shrug* don't give a damn, really. ;)
:: sh 7:15:00 AM [+] ::
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apparently i've fallen in love with this song. ;) sammi loves it i know that. *grin* lovely.

Kelly Clarkson - Miss Independent
Miss independent,
Miss self-sufficient,
Miss keep your distance, mmm,
Miss un-afraid,
Miss out-my-way,
Miss don't let a man, interfere, no.
Miss on her own,
Miss almost grown,
Miss never, let a man, help her off her throne.
So, by keeping her heart protected,
She'd never ever feel rejected,
Little miss apprehensive,
Said ooh, she fell in love.

CHORUS
What is this feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open the door,
Surprise, It's time.
To feel what's real.
What happened to miss independent?
No longer need to be, to miss him.
Goodbye, on you,
Real love, is true.

Miss guided heart,
Miss play it smart.
Miss if you wanna use that line, you better not start, no.
But she miss calculated,
She didn't wanna end up jaded.
And this miss, decided not to miss out on true love, so,
But changin the miss conception,
She went on a new direction.
But found inside, she felt a connection.
She fell in love.

CHORUS
What is this feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open the door,
Surprise, It's time.
To feel what's real.
What happened to miss independent?
No longer need to be, to miss him.
Goodbye, on you,
Real love, is true.

Miss independent walked away,
No time for love that came her way.
She looked in the mirror and brought today,
What happened to miss no longer fate.
It took sometime for her to see,
How beautiful love could truly be,
No talk of what cannot be real,
I'm so glad I finally feel.


CHORUS
What is this feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open the door,
Surprise, It's time.
To feel what's real.
What happened to miss independent?
No longer need to be, to miss him.
Goodbye, on you,
Real love, is true.

(Miss Independent...)
:: sh 6:27:00 AM [+] ::
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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	High
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

i swear i am innocent. i didn't do anything bad. how can i be level8!!! HOW CAN I BE LEVEL 8!! lianne save meeeeee!
:: sh 5:22:00 AM [+] ::
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just took an IQ test. :p which is from here..
Thank you for recently taking the Self Discovery Workshop's IQ Test.
Because of the Internet's ability to mishandle transmissions, we are
reconfirming via email that your IQ Test score was: 165
Our test usually gets within 5 points of the professional tests--a
remarkable feat for a 13 minute test.

Our test gives you a quick and fast measurement of your abilities, and
that can indicate directions for you to take.

Average: 85 - 115
Above average: 116 - 125
Gifted Borderline Genius: 126 - 135
Highly gifted and appearing to be a Genius to most others: 136 - 145
Genius: 146 - 165
High Genius: 166 - 180
Highest Genius: 181 - 200
Beyond being measurable Genius: Over 200


wheee! im a genius! *lol* any1 wanna take the test, do put ur results in my comments! :p
:: sh 2:24:00 AM [+] ::
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>>Wednesday
let's just say i -dont- remember doing anything to the comp, but when i restarted it, there was something wrong with windows. saying it couldn't find this "system.ini" or something file. so i couldn't start it. my bro could only get the windows cd (he came back cos it was labour day the next day) and tried to recover the stuff. but loads couldn't be recovered. so we're trying to get used to icqlite -which- is pretty annoying cos u gotta click the minimise button or it'll just stay there. and there's no history and outbox stuff. bloody annoying. oh well. most of it's my fault anyway. got to get used to it. so anyway, he came back and he was...looking rather...naked? not sure if that's the appropriate term to use. lol. he looked strange. very strange. so much hair's gone. i told him that "when ur outta NS, u BETTER grow ur hair back like before" :p

being the lovely me like i always am *ego* lol...i treated him to canadian pizza *anna! u cheapo!* :p anyway...we had italian and french pizza which was lovely. then we sat down and watched FRIENDS (i recorded it for him). =) it was nice to see him again!

>>Thursday
we sat down and watched smallville together. lovely show. next episode looks bloody fascinating. can't wait to catch it. oh wait. i wont watch it till my bro's back during the wkends again. *sigh* oh well. then he left for camp again like 6+pm and he was back the day before like 8+ going to 9. *grumble* that's not exactly a day, is it? fine, im fussy. im demanding. lalala.

what's the worse part? we didn't manage to watch american idol. hmpfh. oh well. it was a nice episode there. i really was amazed when clay sang "build me up buttercup". "solitaire" was lovely too. got both in my winamp playing over and over again *grin* based on that night's performance....these are my favourites in order... 1. Clay 2. Kimberly Locke 3. Trenyce 4. Ruben 5. Joshua. i would very honestly place trenyce in my top3 cos i reckoned she did well. but ruben didn't do as well as he is supposed to be. but then again he was good. joshua...perhaps the wrong songs chosen. perhaps he's fine but just not as good as the other 4. i was pretty surprised that ruben would've been in the bottom 2 cos i thought the whole america population loved him. as much as ruben being my 4th most enjoyed performance, i didn't want him to be in the bottom 2. i'd rather trenyce and josh be in bottom 2. tho' i prayed and hoped joshua got out earlier. but trenyce's out. *sigh* oh well. hope josh's out next. p/s: loved the medley they did! :)

>>Friday
quite a fine day i had yesterday. ups and downs. i did my art when i went to school cos i wasn't ready to hand it up yet and i spent my time with my bro, on the comp, watching tv. :p couldn't help it, really! but anyway...during chinese, it was my first time i -ever- answered my teacher's question. *lol* (oh wait i put this under the wrong day, ah nevermind). er...during CME we had some rubbish presentation...god there were 9 groups. 5groups had 6/10, 4groups had 9/10. uhh...in case my teacher didn't realise, there -were- such numbers as 7 & 8. *nod me* 6's like close to fail. 9's like close to a perfect 10! that's a lotta difference. we got 6, as usual. nothing surprising. that annoying FM of ours...doubt she quite liked us anyway. :p anyway, i was dreading home economics, feeling reluctant to go for that class. what dya know? we had a relief teacher. she was so boring. cos usually when it's theory lesson, we'll sit near the table where she'll teach. but this time she sits among us. "dont sit so close to me", "move further apart", "why do u have to sit next to ur friend so close together!", "come in a bit.". we spent wha-? 10 mins jus to arrange ourselves so that she's satisfied. what's more? i was about to fall asleep when she started. she spoke like -damn- boring. i kept eyeing my friend who kept rolling her eyes. we were like silently giggling and stuff. i almost dropped my pencil cos i almost fell asleep. lol! it was funny. but ah well. when she told us to do our money box (which was the project we've been working on so far), we were like whee! *bounce* theory's over! lol. i was honestly rather worried about it cos i didn't do much, and we were quite far from finish. thankfully we quite managed to did it to the finishing bit. rather satisfied with the outcome. looks rather cute. it's a snowman money box. im gonna snap pics of it when it's completely done. whee! =)
:: sh 9:36:00 PM [+] ::
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this week's fridayfive
1. Name one song you hate to admit you like.
madonna's american life. :p yea, my friends told me my taste in songs deteoriated. lol!

2. Name two songs that always make you cry.
no songs exactly -can- make me cry. shows do. :p but bon jovi's "all about loving you" and nsync's "god must have spent a little more time on you" never fails to make me go awwwwwh...

3. Name three songs that turn you on.
-good charlotte's the anthem (always get me on my feet bouncing)
-justin timberlake's like i love you
-girls aloud's sound of the underground

4. Name four songs that always make you feel good.
(awh god i hate these stuff lol. i can never decide what songs i love)
-sarah o'connor's skin on skin
-michelle branch's you get me
-tim james' i'll be your secret
-savage garden's two beds and a coffee machine

5. Name five songs you couldn't ever do without.
eh? i can do without loads of songs..lol...ah well i'll jus tell u what im addicted to and i always think of...for now. ;)
-clay aiken's build me up buttercup
-lucy woodward's dumb girl
-indecent obsession's lady rain
-sarah riddle's even angels fall
-christina aguilera's infatuation
:: sh 9:05:00 PM [+] ::
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*heaves a sigh of relief* im glad now. im relieved. he was accused that's all. thank goodness. phew. i don't know what to say. im shocked. im surprised. im mad. im feeling so proud. i'm relieved. thank god. thank god thank god thank god. apologies if i created any confusion. ;)
:: sh 6:38:00 AM [+] ::
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i don't know what to say. i'm shocked. i'm worried. but what's the worse thing? i can't do anything. i can only sit here and stare at this bloody screen to get my mind off it before i start crying again. that's all i can do. how fucking interesting is that. damn helpless. aimless too. i can't get myself to do anything now. i decided to blog. but this is all i can say. what a whole bunch of bloody crap.
:: sh 5:56:00 AM [+] ::
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